How To Knit A Fairytale.

I wanted to create something cosy for my son.

I want to knit a rug that he can keep himself warm in the winter.

I am not the best knitter and learn everyday.

The magic in knitting is that it exercise you're mind to keep in full consentration.

I will create a rug with 366 patches.

One patch for everyday in the year.

Yesterday when i was about to fall asleep in focused in dreaming about the year.

How it is given to us that there are all different days for all of us.

The weather and the nature shapes different forms everyday.

I want to follow the year close. 

How it change everyday for us and how we have to plan to live close to the nature.

Sleepy autumn days is this carpet for.

To know that every season has its mood for us.

It has been a good day today.

I have been out walking for exercise,

and to dinner with my mother.

To love like a looney all can do,

and the best thing is to be a cosy looney.

People find laughter when you show you're crazy side.

Not all days are as good as this,

but i have had a very healing day and stay close to nature.

To knit a fairytale for someone you love is to knit with colorful yarns and keep in spirit so you finish.

This rug is under knitting with all my love to my son,

to help him stay close to nature and freedom.

Loving nature keeps you free all the time.

Have a good day.

Darius Rucker - Wagon Wheel

How To Become A Looney And Be Proud Of Yourself.

Today i had a friend to cut my hair. It is not done at the best yet, but i went from long hair to zero hair for a while ago. It was all for the purpose of setting a stand for cancer patients and to say that there has to be given more money for research on medicine for cancer.

I have reached the age 43 and know that i am getting older and so does my body.

I have been under treatment for a mental illness for over six years.

It has been and extraordinary travel inside my own mind.

The result of the crazy years is a poem novel that will be released this autumn.

I work for preventing suicide and know by the years in units that i best work for this in units where i am a patient myself. 

There is laughter, tears and understanding.

The world got to crazy for me, so i hospitalized myself in the year 2002.

I have found out that the world has not become any better.

I hope by the true love i have for patients in the same environment as me that love will survive.

It is hard to have people always wanting to say and write something about you in journals.

So i make up something when i want to.

That is the free thing about being one of the looneys in the world that you can do nearly anything.

It is really not a cage or a prison feeling when you look at the situation that there are poverty and starvation in the world.

I work with novels and want to make this blog a place for people that want to create a lifestyle that they can stand for with you're own identity.

It do not need to cost much to live a happy life.

I have my downs.

But for the most i experience peace and a lot of good and relaxation in sleep.

I have holiday nearly all the time.

I get some days very tired and then all i do is writing poems.

If you have mental problems hospitalize yourself and seek help for you're illness.

There is always hope to live a good life.

To become a looney all you need to do is to talk about the truth in the world.

That the world suffers from a lot of crisis, from war, terror and starvation.

It was all that happening to me.

But i survive, and have more good laughs in the psychiatric health field than when i was well.

I will follow up with my story and all i wanted to say today was :

" Hello... I am still alive and feeling a lot of love. "

To feel is the key to stay alive.

I got a free hair cut today and liked it a lot.

Be proud of yourself for being a citizen of the world... 

You can make a difference.

Mil Etter Mil Og Noen Vil Forstå Noe ( ? )

Agent Fox Mulder is wanted here.

Milorg.

Alt For Norge.

Mystery Mile - Agents Only :-)

I walked very far today on a road that made me think of mysteries of all i found by the roadside.

I found this note near by the airport here.

It was a mystery that reveals something is happening internationally here on these small islands by the west coast of Norway.

It was good weather and a sense of spring time.

I walked 15, 3 kilometers and walked 20381 steps.

My whole body got stronger of this and my back lifted itself up.

I have not been tired today of the road i walked.

It gives the brain exercise to walk and you see more than if you run.

I believe that much is happening here and i got some good laughs of an artist here in a bus shelter.

I believe i am up for a new life with walkabouts.

I get to travel more in not so long time and will do walkabouts to see the world.

For a start the community i live in on these small islands is a good start.

I got a sense of strength and mastering myself of walking.

The secret is also that i have got better medication and function better.

I took pictures also but my disc for camera in the mac do not work.

There have been celebrities here on these islands because of the beauty by the sea here.

It is easy to get here because of the airport that is international on these islands.

The Meaning Of Life 2

Traveling Blues.

This weekend i started a new chapter in my life with " Rodeomile. "

I decided on two hours notice to go and visit my son and his girlfriend in the capitol of Norway Oslo.

I did som re- investigation of my life and rediscovered new insights to life and the life i have been living. It was a beautiful time in the capitol Oslo.

I arrived Friday morning and entered the hotell " Radisson Blue Oslo. "

They greeted me with a good deal that i got a room at 9 o`clock in the morning so i could sleep well after traveling the whole night with bus.

I was at peace and exited over being back on my feet again and managing traveling and felt joy and peace with being in motion with life.

I travelled calm, easy and kind.

It was cosy to take the bus and i managed to sleep and the driver was kind and secure.

I felt safe.

It was a weekend of rediscovering.

I had not been out traveling since 2007 and it was about on hight time to do a little work for myself with expanding my life and take an adventure.

I do not manage to get my memory card from my photo camera to work on my computer so i can only show pictures taken with the iPhone i got.

The national museum of art had an exhibition about the lonesome cowboy and smoking commercials. I felt pleases and lucky to see this part of lifestyle shown at the national museum.

I think to be a cowboy is one of the most beautiful state of mind to be in and a way of living that brings you close to nature, yourself and connection with animals.

I felt lucky and with joy the whole weekend.

I was very safe in the streets of Oslo and felt safer than in my own home community.

I walked around feeling small and humble and one in the crowd and was comfortable with that.

I met some celebrities and a famous norwegian writer that laughed at me and my red purse.

It was a memory for life.

I am kind and visited my son on surprise.

He got very happy to see his mother more well of traveling than in years.

I had such a good time that i did not want to go back to my own home of living in because of all the stress there now.

I almost cried and felt small and humble.

The bus ride back was a time in thoughts in how fragile this life can be.

I came home and wondered about all the night philosophy and mental health and understood that problems are created by environment and lack of stability.

I dared for some years ago to take a walk on the wild side, and got addicted to that way of living.

I understand now in my 40`ties that that lifestyle is never coming back.

I got home and felt worried and a bit of fear because all of the stress here.

But i managed to smile and show courage and tell about my blessings from the weekend in Oslo.

But the traveling blues tells me that i probably have a heart on the run for life.

That the heart for me as a home will be the traveling road.

I felt for traveling more and build stable connections with people that are safe and kind.

I understand that i learned a lot, also that i can quit smoking.

I hardly smoked on the weekend travel.

I slept well and had great dinners in different places of the city.

Oslo was kind to me and lifted my spirit.

I was not tired there.

When i got back home i got drained of energy and felt problems creeping up my spine.

I have to say that it will probably not be long before i hit the road again to some other place in Norway.

Radisson Blue gave me a room on 18 floor with a fantastic view and i had freedom in mind to be all me and that was enough and i dont do so much about myself.

There is funny stories from the trip and good clothes bought vintage.

I will come back to this tomorrow.

Norway is blessed with snow and beautiful landscapes and i am thankful to have seen the blue hours from the bus ride home.

And all goes to a picture in the national museum of art.

" Winternight " :

I have to thank my son and his girlfriend for making my life better and so much love for them that i did not want to leave for home.

I wanted to be on the road traveling.

Some choose this way of living.

I found out i need to get a stable base, and so i am ready to travel the world for less money than usual.

Radisson Blue gave me a good deal on the room and had great service and let me hold the room to late night on sunday so i could have a place to rest before i travelled home.

The conclusion is that in right environment all mental disorders are cured and you get to feel the free spirit of the road.

I enjoyed taking buss.

New Looks For A Holiday.

I am about to do a little walk about for this coming weekend and visit someone i love with all my heart. I went to the hairdresser to get blonde again.

A hair dresser student got free attitude with me to do whatever she wanted with my hair.

This was the result.

It is done at the hair dresser saloon :

" Haarmakeren "

in Ålesund.

They was experts in what they did.

I got the best treatment ever with them and free mocca coffee and water.

And had some nice talks with them.

It is fun to have short hair and trick with it.

 I am in the library now to relax and pic out novels for this journey i am about to take.

Now i am off to travel.

Wish me luck if you want to. :-)

Vintage Romance

Today i walked in the city and did some errands, i had to get a new passport for traveling. I want to travel around in Europe this coming summer and do some walkabouts in different countries.

It is possible to live a good life even when you suffer.

Today was a good day and i went to a vintage store called : 

" Fretex "

It is run by the Norwegian Salvation Army and you can do some good buys there.

There was a lot of good buys but i needed to guard my money.

I bought this leather coat and i fell in love with it.

It did not cost med more than 50 USD.

I bought also a Levis jeans that costed 40 USD.

It all was a everyday love story when you find something that suits you're style.

The leather coat and the Levis jeans will be used a lot.

It is better to do buys that suits you're identity and you're souls and use them often, than shop a lot and not use the clothes more than one or two times.

It is possible to have a good style that you like for yourself and that you can stand for who you are by choosing the clothes you love and give you a positive attitude.

I have also cut my hair today and is waiting that it will grow so i can get a better hair cut.

I shaved of all my hair before christmas for the research on cancer case.

I wanted to support this.

Do what you love in life and do not be afraid to change into the real you,

even if you dont look as good as you used to.

It is possible to age and look as yourself and have you're own style.

Find you're indentity in vintage stores.

There you can start you're fairytale for life...

with being yourself.

A Mile With A Dog.

Today i walked in the nature with a dalmatian and it was a good walk.

But passed scenes from a healthy life entered my mind and remembered me on how i used to be.

I felt grieve over myself and all i have been through.

But the dog kept me in good spirit and as myself.

She was very humble towards me and kind.

She kissed my check as if telling me :

" All will be all right in a while. "

Dogs are very kind towards me and i love them with my life.

They keep me in good spirit and greets me as myself.

There are no stigmata in a dog of a mental disorder.

To be kind is easy with dogs and they make me behave like myself again.

I walked for an hour with the dog together with the owner of the dog.

It got a bit of my memory back of happier days.

I cut my hair today also and is not with long golden blonde hair anymore.

I shaved of all my hair this summer for the cancer case and research on cancer.

To tell everybody where my heart is.

I will grow out the hair again.

But i think i will shave it off again to the summer.

A walk for a mile today got me in contact with my feelings.

I am better now in the evening and have had good laughs.

A Walk In The Sun

It has been a while since i have blogged and there has been a reason why.

I have been in grieve and a lot of trouble.

But all can come to an end if you just hold on.

I felt a bit of depression and grieve today.

Life holds all kinds of emotions and it is a lie that it is all glory days.

But today i felt the spring.

I got up and walked to the seaside.

By the seaside here on the islands here is a vintage store.

I stopped there and bought a book support shelf and two books about :

" Moby Dick " By Herman Melville.

It is said that life will change after reading Moby Dick.

I sat by the seaside for an hour and watched the boats go by.

The motors in the boats is like a sound of the oceans heart beat.

I love that sound.

I also got to see a spy ship from the army go by extremely fast.

I do not know why, but i got a bit depressed about all about war and defense.

It is hard that mankind needs such things to keep mankind safe.

I just let the thought go and sat and read and enjoyed lunch.

It was fresh water from a bottle and a chicken wraps.

I was not so very hungry and is working with getting better in shape.

Todays stay by the seaside opened me to feelings.

I felt for crying sometimes and also felt a sense of peace.

It has been hard years for me the last few years.

But i hold on still.

The afternoon i will spend reading :

" Moby Dick. "

And see if my life change.