torsdag 30. juni 2016
Reading Day In The Rain
Today i have a sleepwalking day. I am tired and slow of the medication i take.
There is opening a new unit on one of the district psychiatric centers that will treat people without medication. I wait in hope to become one of the first in this treatment.
While i wait patiently i read a lot.
Today i started the novel " The Guests " of Sarah Waters.
I will spend the whole afternoon reading and enjoying coffee.
A good novel can be a good companion and make life easier.
onsdag 29. juni 2016
How It Feels Like Sometimes
This picture is taken of me exhausted after a whole day in life.
I hang in there on medication ( i really dont like to take )
I am in the early 40`ties and have no crisis.
I wear a smile because i am still alive.
I can't understand people having a crisis of age, you should really celebrate each giving day.
I really did not think i would make it through my 30 `ties.
But here i am still and going strong even though i carry a load i have not asked for myself.
Life can be hard.
Sometimes that is alright and sometimes not.
But i love to live and enjoy whats in it when i feel up to it.
But i have severe side effects of medication.
But i am still in for life and handle it on my own.
The one true thing with me is that i am kind and loving, but i dont put up with people not treating others right.
I have had very bad psychiatric treatment and try to walk on in life with this baggage that is not popular to have. But the honest truth is that in 2020 depression and mental illness will be the largest disease in the world. And there is not so much preventive work for making the numbers go down.
This blogg is my contribution to make life easier for others and knowing that there is solutions even though you dont see them.
My best advice is to follow you're heart and you're inner instinct of love that lies in all humans.
There is a will of love in all of us.
Bullneighbours
I have just came back from an evening walk by the seaside. Beautiful landscape and the sound of sea. I have rested my heart and walked.
It is nice to be by the seaside to clear the mind.
Outside my house i have bulls walking in the pastures.
One of them is really special, i have never seen such drawings in a bull before.
I took some pictures of him.
It seems like he like this and is curious at me.
I laugh and smile of this and it makes me happy.
Walk On
Everyday can be a struggle caught in the in-betweens.
I am hospitalized and a cowgirl that has forgotten her skills.
But i walk on.
I dont give up and is planning a walkabout this summer.
I will travel by foot and train and bus.
To see the world again.
It is easy to think that all the world has gone mad.
But in-betweens can be good,
you learn about life and problems and how to solve them.
I think i go horseback riding this afternoon.
I live on a farm and believe in the lord above, that he helps out when you dont understand what has happened to you for years.
Walk on.
Dont let problems get you down,
and create you're own style.
What you like and not what other mean you should carry on you.
Walk you're own mile in this life.
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