tirsdag 30. mai 2017

If I Can Dream A Dream.

Things are happening here with me.
There is space in the community i live in on the west coast of Norway for a shop.
It is four islands connected together in a small community.
Here are the possibility for the needs of the citizens of the islands to start a old fashioned store with  a new style. 
I am planning to open a country store.
I have the dream with me and know it can work out well.
The store will have groceries, perfumes and cosmetics, clothing and sporting equipment.
It is my place in life.
I want to live slow after all i have been through and not stress to much.
I start this with two empty hands and see if i can build it with a project from the town hall.
It is possible and i can't wait to get started.
It will be a kind place that will welcome all customers with service and guidance to find they're true spirit in a natural life.
To live by the pulse of the countryside and the seaside.
We are surrounded by water in a beautiful landscape and scene of Norway.
I want to move people out of meaningless lives and move them to carry on and be comforted with a store that gives nearly all you need.
I live after the saying :
" There are always new roads to walk on... "

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fredag 26. mai 2017

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The True Meaning Of The Life Of A Crazy Person.

There is hope for all of us. 
Even the crazy ones.
If you live life to the fullest, you can end up trying to be a crazy person.
Even if it was not you're intention in the first place.
The real thing with me is that i educated my self to become a nurse.
That worked pretty well.
But as i moved on with my workdays i started to realize the world had gone mad.
I hospitalized myself.
It ended up with a journey from 2002 - 20017 with the status that i have had 8 diagnosis.
I have read a lot about all of them.
The main thing with a mental illness is that it often start out with problems people can relate to.
And often it is the " healthy " people treating us crazy ones mean.
To find meaning in suffering you do with staying true to yourself.
That was the main thing with me, i did not want to change to please others and live a life in depression and meaningless with not being anybody.
You're values forms you're personality.
To be crazy in life is not the worse thing.
The worse thing is to live a lie.
To be not yourself.
I have had practice in the psychiatric health field as a nurse and a student of life.
Crazy or not crazy.
The thing i have learned is that all people have issues.
The ones in the end turning up better than healthy people is the patients.
They have more understanding and know the system and feel with you when you are down.
Empathy a patients can show high skills in.
When patients show more healthy reactions than doctors,
the crazy ones seems to become a normal person, with a lot of fun.
The meaning of it all is not to try to fit in all places.
But to find friends that supports you on you're life journey.
When you find good friends, it is not that bad to be crazy.
The crazy thing is that i have gotten a new doctor with education from USA.
I am the first in Norway under a special treatment with vitamins and minerals.
That doctor tells me that i am not crazy, but very strong.
It surprised me after hearing for years with deprivation in treatment that i was schizophrenic.
I did not believe it myself.
But understood i was a little bit crazy.
I found meaning in my life with my son and my friends, and patients making me laugh a lot.
Mostly over people working in the health care units ending up more crazy than patients sometimes when problem occurred.
I believe there is a thin thin line in what is healthy, sane and what is madness.
I have tried it all.
The health care system has treated me bad.
I learned so much from it that i really believe that the ones being patients and crazy for some years shows up to be the most healthy ones in the world.
They understand by experience and learning what healthy people do towards them.
There is a lot of kind people in the world.
The crazy ones can end up to be the kindest.
I work for that people shall find faith to go through a crisis in life.
To become more aware over life through mindfullness and healing of traumas and depression.
It is possible with the right education of yourself and treatment you have to educated yourself on.
Follow me, and you will walk into a world to a person that needs to change her whole entire life in a new treatment called :
Orthemolecylar treatment.
I also need to change my nutrition.
Before i got ill i exercised a lot,
and now i am back in exercise.
I treat myself kind and find meaning in talking to myself.
I find an intelligent conversation in this and understood that most people dont dare to think out load.
I live in a little community on an island in Norway on the west coast.
Here are extremely  beautiful.
But here are weather and it changes all the time.
The meaning of being crazy is that you will find joy after a while.
In understanding by discovering the world that most people have problems.
The popular psychology has fooled the world to think that happiness all the time is the real thing. People pursue happiness all the time.
It become and addiction that ends in bipolar illness.
Because it is harder to face the problems in life when everything shall be happiness all the time.
What do not kill you, makes you stronger.
When you realize that problems will be there in life and you accept it and do not bother so much about it, you will find laughter in problems.
The crazy ones can really save the world with becoming guides for people in empathy, endurance and will power to stay in difficult treatment that really is not healthy.
The health care system can create chronicle patients.
People that become crazy for years.
But there is a way out.
Start to talk about what you experience as reality and what you think is wrong with the world.
When i did this, they signed me out of hospital.
The reality check is that crazy people has a lot to learn the world.
For me :
I choose to stay a bit crazy, even though i have a doctor not calling me crazy.

To Hold You Up In Hard Times.

Life can give you games you never really realized would happen to you.
I go through a deep crisis in my life, but stand tall still.
I have been under treatment for psychosis.
But i am not really sure it is psychosis, but a reaction to a world that has gone a bit over the edge.
I try to keep myself healthy and stay strong with the clothing that i like.
To be a psychiatric patient you need to understand some thing. 
1. Life is fun. ( When you realize that you are not the only one being mad you can start to laugh a lot.)
2. Walk every day to stay fit.
3. Talk to good friends ( they tend to be better than health care workers. )
4. Do not let anybody fool you to think you are more ill than you really are.
5. Play music.
6. Discover you're true self. Crisis in life can lead you to more meaning in life.
7. Travel ( change location and stay brave. )
8. Find you're talents.
9. Move on.
10. The trouble with trouble is trouble. Let it go.
I do not look as an ill person.
I am not sure that i am so ill, but a bit crazy.
I live on a love budget with welfare money, but manage my life well.
As a psychiatric patient : " Dress good. " It helps you to the picture in others that they look at you more well.