lørdag 31. desember 2016
onsdag 23. november 2016
Soul Identity System
I have been reading psychology for over 20 years and know a lot in bought the fields positive psychology and coaching.
What i will write about today is :
" The Right To Be You. "
The right to be you is a right of life since the day you was born.
A little child has struggled on the way to be an adult.
A healthy adult is an adult that draw lines to others behavior that is destructive towards you're own being and the way for you to fulfill you're inner potential and you're dreams.
Do not let anyone ruin you.
I have for years resembled into a pattern where i have just been in peace.
It was the way to be treated good in the psychiatric field and to get out.
I have yet to understand why i do not have the right to be angry ?
It is a natural feeling in humans and also a set for us all to react in our defense system.
It had been weird if i just sat peaceful and reacted nothing to isolation of me.
I was isolated with nearly no communication to the outer world.
When this happens the nursing and the doctors needs to work with high professional skills.
Something they did not do. I was injured by the isolation and still suffers from post depression and trauma. The real thing happening is that i am starting to understand why they did it towards me.
It includes that i take my case to the court system to file and acclaim to the state of Norway on bad treatment, breaking of human rights and ruining of my life.
But the real thing i wanted to talk about is to survive and handle nearly impossible questions.
It is for people to hold on to the right of life,
and the right to be you.
No matter what others tell you.
I am well and has post depression.
I take anti depressive that i asked for myself,
no doctor ordered it for me.
They should really have had that care for me.
The last months have been difficult.
But you and I walk on.
The urge in you to rise again as a human,
and being allowed to be human is a central right in all humans.
Do not let anybody control you.
I developed a high sense of ego.
The idea of who you are and the presence in you to build and to have an identity.
You must make to make it in this world a good sense of a self.
The human you are has needs.
This needs you must nurse yourself.
And when you find out this needs and how to make them fulfilled you start to discover the true sense of a self with a strong identity.
To be able to make choices and decisions is easier when you are true to yourself.
You form an identity that is clear.
The ego is not a negative thing.
It is an idea in the psychology to be able to construct and having a self of an human.
You find out who you are true problems.
Experience give you the clear meaning of life.
Hold on no matter what you are going through.
Make yourself a plan of what you want and the true meaning is :
" Make the best of who you are and you're own potential. "
When you do this happiness start to occur and a natural way for you of living reveals itself.
lørdag 19. november 2016
Attention Seeking / Everyday Crime
The world has a lot of different personalities. Some of us seek a lot of attention on others.
I dont. I live a peaceful life at a farm, and blogg because i sometimes feel bored and has the urge for telling a true story about myself. I live in a little society and a small municipal and seek attention in small parts to get friends and love. That is a honest mission in life. It is okay to tell that you are lonely. The other side is people seeking attention in you by discussing something that they really dont know much about. I find that people seek attention in what i have been through because it is an exiting and thrilling part in psychology. The weird thing is that nobody asks me on what the true part of my life is. I know that people discuss me a lot. But they dont seek me. It is not paranoia. I know it is going on. When people seek attention all the time, it can be seen on as narcissism. And i find that some doctors finds it developing to read about my case and make judgements. The true part is that it is a severe depression that has made my symptoms of illness. I have gotten antidepressiva and starts to heal. That also includes that i blogg less. Because i dont have the need so much to tell what is the real thing. The real life is that we all seek attention, but when someone steal you're life to be better and starts to talk bad about the person they compete with it is narcissism. Real problems with a person is not narcissism. I believe the society will change in knowing good psychology. Psychology that seeks to make people ( and also animals ) to act they're best on a mission to serve mankind in the way the people has capacity to change interpersonal relations to the better. Love is a language all knows. But when people all the time make a problem out of another persons illness it can be seen on as a way to seek attention and ruin the life of an ill person. This is going on with me. I nearly do not talk to so very much people. Because i have found out that i want to live in peace and not conflicts. When i get better people start to play games with me and compete. It is really hard when my true intention is to make people at they're best in they're own way. I blogg to reveal the presense of The Lord above in all that i am doing. To seek a little bit attention is not an illness. But when you all the time make a problem out of others there is a case for the psychiatric. I find out that people discuss me and dont know anything because they dont ask me on what is going on.
Attention seeking is an urge in people. All want love. But i dont want attention all the time. I found a book in a vintage store of a man living in peace. The picture gave me a sense in what i wanted with my life without copying his life.
I have to move maybe from the farm in what other people do towards me because of my writing and my illness. It is hard to make it through in a place where people has a lot to mean about you. Without asking for the real mission. The mission with me is love for all in a natural ethical way.
People can think and mean whatever they want, but when people stalk you and tells stories that is not true about you, you know you are not the real case. There is other cases.
I am worried that i will not make it through with people in the community because i know from a letter i got from the municipal head quarter that i am not wanted in the community.
It is hard when i have lived and loved here all the time.
I seek attention in the little by giving my stories a line to make people suffering to live a good life without much money and less friends. There is always good friends. But the people who always see you're illness and focus on that you really should stay away from because it will not make you healthy. The people that give you equal attention in a give and receive relationship is the best ones healing you. People are kind to me. But some play mental games with me and tell stories. I get to hear a little of this and knows that someone wanted to play me out. I know that all will loose in the end with the knowledge that i dont play and put peoples life at risk.
I do not tell anymore. Other that i am kind, but very sad and in sorrow over people seeking attention and playing a role with people they do not know.
Seek attention for the urge of healing another person.
Attention you get with making the day better for someone that has had it very bad.
That is really the true goal in all christianity and what God wants you to do.
To be seen as a good person by someone suffering from a mental illness is a good quality you can take with you on the way on developing yourself to a better person.
I see very little of that around me and move soon to be together with patients and recovered people that really understand that problems will always occurs.
But that the true healing is together with people that knows and has learned from seeing that love is the only thing that survives.
Seek true love in other persons and you find yourself as a better person.
onsdag 16. november 2016
Ethical Health
The way you present yourself can be the most important thing in the society we live in.
Sometimes you can question who you are as an individual.
It is possible to change the way people think about you in the way you dress and how you present you're face with make up.
I was hospitalized for a while and used a Metallica t-shirt.
The doctors were nearly more interested in Metallica and the t-shirt, than in what my communication said to them by words.
I got that time a message from the doctor that it was nearly no hope for me as an human.
The way you look at humans may reveal itself by the way you're perception is.
Behind a Metallica t-shirt a very kind woman revealed herself.
My fellow patients got help from me and they was the only ones motivating me to go on with my life.
Clothing can give you a new life.
My next hospitalization i was wearing very good hiking clothes in a sporty way.
The result was that my diagnose went away with another doctor.
I question a lot in how society look at people.
An ethical way to promote health is to dress sporty and kind.
The realization in what power clothing has can give you a new perspective on other humans and life in general. I think i will think a lot about clothing.
I try to dress casual and without promoting myself as a sexual human.
I really want to discover life and the ethical terms in wellbeing.
I want to be human.
Not
Perfect.
The paradoks in showing up ethical casual is that you find the good and honest conversation in people. Not all the time, but in most of the time.
I dress not for success.
I try to make my own living in being natural and ethical as a nurse.
You can achieve anything you want with a good heart.
Is it really so important how we dress ?
I dont look at peoples clothing to get to understand the human i talk to.
There is a someone behind the clothes.
I buy a lot of clothes at the salvation army outlet with vintage clothes.
I can find there nearly anything and sometimes good brands.
There is something in me that do not want to be the best.
Because being the best is nearly inhuman.
You get a lot of weight on your shoulders to try to fix everything all the time.
It is really not possible.
In my blogg i will show the human side of ethical health and clothing.
To give people a realistic look at life and who they can be.
I think there is a revolution in clothing and what we want to dress up for.
You can be dresses for any occasion in a t-shirt and jeans and the right shoes.
If you only dare to be yourself.
There is a presentation in us in what we chose to live after in our clothing.
But remember that many people dont care about they're clothing.
And some dont make to dress the way they want to.
A casual life can hide the extraordinary by wearing a smile and good make up.
I am in my forties and it feels this way to also.
Remeber to look the way you really want to be.
A natural feeling, comes with natural clothes.
I think the society is in wrong direction in people trying to make it the best way all the time.
Never underestimate the feeling of just ordinary comfy clothes.
Be you and try to be ethical to save the world.
You chose you're destiny in you're own creation of everyday style.
Be the master of you're health by showing the true you.
Not what beauty magazines tells you.
It do not show the real life.
We need also work clothes and a life is created in knowing that sometimes it is perfect, sometimes casual and sometimes ugly.
You`re self esteem will grow in showing the real you, because then you build up a life with identity.
lørdag 12. november 2016
To Be Happy
We are facing a new time.
Much will happen the next years and my advice is to stay happy.
To find out what makes you happy is to discover life.
You have to focus on you're life and find out what brings you happiness.
It can also be to re discover you're life.
That after all you have a lot to be happy for.
Sometimes it can be to be a happiness explorer.
To reach out to new landscapes and find that new experiences brings you happiness.
I am wondering about moving to the city Aalesund.
I want to try the city life and be social again.
I have lived on a farm, and it is great.
But i found out that people are different and have various missions in life.
I love the farm and it will be hard to leave the fantastic nature and the wildlife here.
But i need to be social and not so lonely anymore.
I am honest in that i feel lonely
and work towards goal that i will reach a new plattform in life where people give me the greatest joy.
I have a lot to work with on my novels.
And in spite of all happening with hospitalizations, medications and people not understanding my situation, there is always hope.
A doctor understood that i am not schizophrenic but rather bipolar.
He understood what is happening to me with mental tricks from others.
To blogg is to put you're life out in public.
I want to show people love and kindness can be found in all,
and that situations and conflicts can become something to grow on with communication and forgiveness.
In forgiveness you find the key to great happiness.
To take a closer look on that people are not how you really believed they were.
My greatest strength is that i can forgive.
I find happiness in forgiving and knowing that after all we are only humans.
Even though we are very precious.
I am in for a new discovery about moving to the city and work with my plans and goals for the future and create love in all i do.
I want people to find they`re own true way
so they dont step in front of another way to destroy what you build up.
People can be cruel and not want you to succeed in what you do.
Be not afraid to step out of the line
and be thoughtful for a while.
Also by changing direction in what you believe can be the discovery of new life.
I believe in change,
i believe all can succeed in what they want to do.
And i believe there is love for all.
Just hold on and work with you're future, by finding out that maybe the life you live now is more than enough.
We dont really know what waits in the future.
But we are all humans and can't afford to take to high risks with the world and peoples lives.
Try to find out what makes you happy right now.
Keep on the good habits you have
and
make a change if you are feeling depressed or chaotic.
To find the golden highway is to find out that it is a line you walk to hold on to what is true in you're life.
Sometimes it can be hard and you need to work on what makes you happy.
But to stay true to yourself and the people you love is the true way to authentic happiness. That nobody can steal from you.
fredag 11. november 2016
fredag 4. november 2016
torsdag 3. november 2016
fredag 14. oktober 2016
tirsdag 11. oktober 2016
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lørdag 1. oktober 2016
onsdag 21. september 2016
lørdag 17. september 2016
fredag 16. september 2016
torsdag 15. september 2016
onsdag 14. september 2016
Rainy Day And Surviving
This is how i look like on a very bad day. The last week has thrown me into thoughts of meaningless that i never have had before. Actually there was little thoughts. I just was very tired of the medication and had no forces left to fight for the will to live.
I got three days of hospitalization, but the doctor meant i was very well. I did not understand so very much, but i realized that i had it better at home.
Every day has a new start.
Today it has poured down water from the sky.
In the morning when i got up i could have taken a shower outside.
But it was cosy to stay inside.
The cats refused to go outside and has stayed inside sleeping nearly all day.
I am kind and fight now for the will for people to live.
I understand that suicidal thoughts is the hardest thing in a persons life.
There is hope for all.
More people die of suicide each year then of terror.
It shocked me to find this out,
and there needs to be put lights on that this is the actual reality in the world.
I want, pray and wish for that people do get a good and happy life with good friends, family and neighbors. It is possible to all of us if we only manage to survive through the hard times.
I have had visit of a good friend today and she noticed that i am better than the last time she was here.
It is good to get adjustment on you're reality so you know you are better.
It feels all right now.
Not fabulous, fun and bright.
But okay enough to say that i have quality time.
I need to get another medication or get of medication and go through some therapy because of PTSD of the treatment i have gotten the last years. It has been hard.
And i dont understand why there is so little to do in psychiatric units here in Norway.
You get a diagnose because of the system and how it works, not on the actual problems you are suffering with.
Life is okay right now.
I go now for a cup of coffee,
and have to write down new goals for my life.
Someone told me to study to be a psycholog.
I dont know if i do that.
But i need to get into more education.
Life on the countryside helps me to heal.
But you are not guaranteed that everything will work out okay if you only reach you're dreams.
Treatment and life is there always, and the reality is that life is hard.
Sometimes that is okay and sometimes not.
But the truth is that you grow stronger of every down trip you climb out of.
Keep on going.
tirsdag 13. september 2016
Poem : " The Day Before It All Begun ".
Whispers of the gentle breeze
is to hide in the autumn leaves.
Do you remember the day
when prayers was to be held.
Dont let go of the beautiful you.
In the autumn it all hide
to see that generations needs to be protected.
A summer day
in the indian sky
makes you remember the sound
of a horse
gentle enough to save the world...
Go wherever you want
and remember that stars shine at night,
for you to sleep
under the sky.
Fall in love my beautiful one.
In love all the strength lies.
To see you have a future,
in that you dont need to dream alone.
Mona Kristin Roald
mandag 12. september 2016
Poem : " Evening Rose "
How beautiful you really are
is hidden from the outside world.
You`re laughter is like the sun
shining through on a rainy day.
You are like the rainbow
and the water drops on you make you fresh as the spring.
You walk still...
even though you're steps are heavy.
You carry you're secrets to unfold
by
the mystery of memories.
You hide for the world...
and wake up at nights
for only Gods eyes.
You hold a mystery
that you still are beautiful
and my greatest love.
I feel you're presence even though we are separated.
But every day we grow more,
in hope to see a new future...
with love...
Mona Kristin Roald
søndag 11. september 2016
Life Moves Us
The reality here is that after three days of hospitalization we all in the building relaxes.
Teddy sleeps behind me and is well off and has begun to like the life outside and is curious on what is going on in the cat world.
Buster missed me when i was away and was the one missing me the most.
Today on a sorrowful day on remembering 9/11
he turned me around with letting me cuddle with him for the first time.
He has been without this the whole time here and is the cat that stayes the most beside me when i hurt. I am not alone and Buster is giving me a lot of love and is tame.
The cats are still kittens but has grown a lot the latest time.
I recommend to all suffering to get one or two cats.
They will nurse you, protect you and heal you.
Buster relax of me and like to bite my toes.
This is the best picture i got of Buster today.
Some days away let them understand how important i am for the kittens.
I love them and they change my day on remembering that a little kitten gave me the honor of loving me on 9/11. Life moves us in new direction and tells me to go to bed and let the cats sleep beside me.
It is a relaxing time where they take away all my thoughts for the night with making cosy noises and they think it is the best time of the day to go to bed.
I sleep very well with the cats on a fur rug beside me.
Teddy likes to lie next to my head.
If i talk to myself he slaps me in the head,
and it gives me a good laugh.
lørdag 10. september 2016
tirsdag 6. september 2016
mandag 5. september 2016
Muppet Show - Mahna Mahna...m HD 720p bacco... Original!
I can't take more other that a little in-between , laugh of phone ;-)
onsdag 31. august 2016
ABBA - The Winner Takes It All (1980) HD 0815007
They have fooled me in the head and gave scheme with mistakes - i am writing for kindness.
tirsdag 30. august 2016
Céline Dion - The Power Of Love (Official Video)
Drink water and watch you're blood sugar levels. Kind and Sleep Well :-)
Reality Check
Today i have been very tired of all that they do to me.
The reality is kind.
I have had visit and been out with a good friend and got good hugs and the courage to go on.
The reality is that i have spent the evening painting and writing.
Teddy and Buster relax and stay together with me when i paint and draw.
Teddy gave his foot to the water when i took picture.
He told me to drink more water.
He is very kind and observant.
Teddy and Buster is very kind and protects me when i paint so people should not analyze it to be something more than what it is.
It is actions of love for humans and to give hope that makes me paint and draw
" The Little Prince Returns ".
Reality is kind and relaxing.
Smarte katter velger Pussi Sensations Crunchy!
They are taking away my cats because of cat food. It is not illegal and i wonder what they are in the head and are health care workers. I could tell a long story about this, and is going to Human Right Court in Strasbourg. I am kind and think very nice. The kittens sleeps of me and have a good quality life here on the farm. Veterinary will understand what they are in the head. Pussi cat food i recommend to all cat owners. Kind - it is to protect you.
mandag 29. august 2016
Buster Is Relaxed
Buster is safe and relaxed.
Bought kittens sleeps now and is relaxing and has a good life here at the farm.
Animals helps you out when you have a difficult time.
It Hurts - But I Paint
It hurts a lot all that is going on. I am kind and scared of it all happening.
But i paint to ease my mind and have control and meaning of life.
The kittens are relaxed and are sleeping.
It is blowing outside and it starts to get autumn weather.
I live meaningful but are thorned down to not trust anybody.
I focus on the novel
" The Little Prince Returns "
and this is one of the illustrations to the book.
The Little Prince Survived.
It gives me comfort and meaning.
I am kind.
Somebody Tries To Kill Me
I have hard times surviving and a cab driver pointed at me two times.
I invited one close to me today to get help to survive.
I told about what people do to me, it is important to say that many are kind.
But mental clicking is existing and the one visiting me today made two fingers beside his mouth for a while. It is called " Vagface " and i dont know why people do it towards others.
It is in the story that my doctor also sits this way and have been doing it for years.
They are worse in the head than me.
They also wanted the cats away.
I have right to life.
Right to Live.
Right to Privacy
and
right to tell what is going on.
I die of this if it continues.
Two nurses was kind to me today and understood.
They asked me to call if i could not take anymore.
Someone close to me is playing games and theatre with the whole world.
If i get locked up by telling this the world is very wrong.
I am kind and tries to live in privacy and peace.
Stay strong.
And if someone knows why they do it, please make a comment.
fredag 26. august 2016
torsdag 25. august 2016
onsdag 24. august 2016
My Day So Far
Buster have been " The bucket Thief " today and is settling in to be more relaxed and comfortable in his new home.
Sometimes it takes time to settle in, animals and people are different.
I struggle with a little bit of anxiety of what the doctors and nurses do, because they think different about me than what i really am. Honestly i dont understand them, but i am kind to them.
To help my mind out of troubles i bought a postcard for a friend i am going to write to.
It is a little puppy loving music.
I hope to have a dog next year if i can get off medication.
Everything is kind here and i sleep mostly because i have a hard time and is very sad about all happening to me.
But kind and funny cats and a cosy card helps me.
Sometimes it is good to take the life simple.
tirsdag 23. august 2016
How I Looks Like Sometimes On A Good Day
I am kind and in a terrible mess of the doctors.
I am at home and somebody wonders a lot about me.
They wanted me to stay poor and not have money.
I dont know why they are scared of me having money.
Read : Vitamin and Mineral Analysis for home based use.
It is an invention i have.
The thrill in all the wondering i dont want to be a part of.
I draw and paint and stay here at the farm.
A song i like a lot i present here :
mandag 22. august 2016
Metallica - The Unforgiven (Video)
I was threatened on life of nurses. ICN gets my report, save hospitals. If i die Norway goes under.
I am kind.
Smokie - Needles and Pins (Official Video)
I understood nurses today, they stood all the time and did something more. They play with my life and i can die of what they did. ICN - papers have it all. I need help !!!
søndag 21. august 2016
Leif Juster - Telefon til landet
I played Leif Juster hospitalized and nobody understood me, but i laughed a lot.
lørdag 20. august 2016
fredag 19. august 2016
Ozzy Osbourne - "Dreamer"
" Quality Dreamer " was kind, an unforgettable horse, he was alias " Camaro " - Manchester United saves the world.
Alanis Morissette - Hands Clean (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
A horse told me this :-) I am kind :-) Horses talks :-)
A Talk With A Horse
I am not going to be hospitalized more ever.
I went out in the garden to the horses with apples.
Ryvar, the Northland Horse was very kind to me because i grieve, and that is natural after all i have been through.
I said to Ryvar : " I hurt a lot " and started to cry.
The horse answered with licking my hands gentle.
I cried silent tears and said to him :
" You can do it, save the world. "
He turned his head to my neighbor and yawned several times.
He told me to go to the neighbors for friends and talks and sleep well to us all.
Horses are very intelligent and extremely kind.
They can give us the best talks and understanding about who we are.
Peace On Earth
I will cry for three years, and start a new life with painting and writing and write the novel and the movie : Frozen Soldier.
It is to give people the understanding of reality in 2016 and what love is. Not sex. I am brave and has risked my life to save people. I am in danger and need sometimes help. But i make it through with the farm, horses, cats and bird...and by the sea i once saw a whale and killer whales, and i walk the shorelines for years to see the whales. Smile. Peace On Earth - hope and pray for it to happen. You can do more than you believe. So believe in the ones fighting for peace. Peacekeeping mission...
Paradise
I have a good day, even though i am low in energy, but things go around anyway and i dont strive to do the most in the world. Buster the kitten has become friend with the horses. He sits outside together with them, but i did not manage to take a picture.
Ryvar is gentle and kind and he relax together with me.
He nearly fell asleep together with me.
Horses can tell us something in how to live our life.
Horses are really relaxing and peaceful animals that likes to take the days gentle and only rest and eat. The horses are in my garden and i can see them all the time.
Shanti, the arabian gelding had a little bird on his back.
All the life here on the farm is healing mentally and a good everyday life.
I got all my childhood dreams fulfilled.
I am kind and clean the house today and try to live an ordinary life.
In an ordinary life you find the true meaning and dreams fulfilled.
You dont need to conquer the world, but live after you're health and what the days gives you with meaning.
I got the meaning today.
torsdag 18. august 2016
I Painted Pictures In My Mind All The Time
I hope you all laugh and knows that happy endings is really the true story of life.
The Little Prince survived and the answer and the riddle i understood in the spring 2002 at my first hospitalization.
I have had eight diagnosis and no doctor has ever known where i have and is in my mind. But the true story is that humans got soul.
I believe in a lots of things and work for a better planet and universe for us all.
There is NASA.
And they love cats also and is kind.
I have been together with the little prince all the time since 2002.
Nobody understood it before now.
I paint in my mind all the time and it saves me.
Now the truth is about me is out,
but i dont know it all and have my question marks,
without turning into Mark.
Life is fun and shall always be like this.
There can be the best laughs in suffering and show the true meaning of life and what you are as a person.
Teddy ( Ted ) is very kind and protects my head and my paintings.
I have not needed tranquilizers since i got the cats.
I have never taken much, but because of Teddy and Buster i sleep well and is mentally focused on them and paintings all the time.
I write on the book :
" The Little Prince Returns ".
The true story is that he never left.
onsdag 17. august 2016
Green Day
It is Green Day here, and i have been out walking and bicycling today before visit of a health care team. I got fresh in my mind and happy on walking in the sunny days here. It gives comfort and healing to the soul.
I was together with the horses that goes on the pastures for the summer.
I had a positive meeting with the doctor today.
She talked good to me about my plans for the future and said that i was not ill now.
I asked then why i was on forced treatment because i am not a dangerous person.
She said it is because i refuse to take medication when i am in voluntary treatment.
We talked about my plans for the future and she said it was realistic and i told i am working on the novel : " The Return of The Little Prince. "
It gives me joy and hope and describe the meaning of life and how hard it can be sometimes.
But that everything can come to an understanding.
I am in hope for the future now and the doctor listened good to me on how i mean the treatment in psychiatric should be and that i might work in the psychiatric field in about some years.
I must learn more and recover fully myself.
There is hope for all suffering from a mental illness.
Use the nature to get well and healthy again.
mandag 15. august 2016
God is Great
Somebody clicked me mentally with a picture to a song. I am kind. Knowing something and writing a novel for peace on earth. Someone does something towards me. They forgot i am educated as a nurse. And have been playing with me. It is no fun. God is Great. I am doing okay.
The Little Prince Is Back
I have been drawing the whole evening together with the cats.
When i was to take picture of the painting Teddy laid down beside it and guarded it.
He refused to go away.
In the spring 2002 i understood the book of Antoine de Saint-Exupèry.
The Little Prince is a good book and i understood that the Litle Prince had returned in 2002 when i was stranded in a mental institution.
I understood the book and the answer on the question in the book.
I will be writing about the Little Prince the next coming year.
And paint and draw.
If you understand this picture, you understand the whole novel about the Little Prince.
And to joy for us all
The Little Prince has been back since 2002 and he has been hiding.
Now it is time he comes to us all to make us understand the true meaning of love and life and the importance in traveling.
Kenny Loggins - Danger Zone
I am doing something very kind to make everybody sleep well, i present it in about two hours.
These Guys will sleep well, i know the answer on something. The Litle Prince.
lørdag 13. august 2016
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tirsdag 9. august 2016
Buster And Teddy Loves U2 - U2 Heals Anxiety In Kittens
Buster is kind and relax of U2 and they stay a little bit on guard when they listen to U2.
Zooropa is kind and Buster heals of U2, he has been very scared.
Teddy Is Kind And Sleeps Of U2
Teddy sleeps well of U2 and is staying together with me all the time.
Buster has also stayed with the computer but was camera shy.
Zooropa
Teddy loves U2 and stay listening and on guard to save them mentally.
He loves the computer and has stayed nearly the whole evening by the computer.
The kittens are extremely kind and sleeps in my hands.
mandag 8. august 2016
Rockwell - Somebody's Watching Me
I am kind and laughing, i am not paranoid. Somebody har done something. Kind.
søndag 7. august 2016
This Is The Scenery Of My Novel That Got Stolen
This is the place i have chosen to write about in the Novel and the nature around.
We in the family has a cabin nearby and i will stay there to write and get in contact with the true feeling of nature, life and myself.
It is a novel for experience life and find meaning in every moment, even at bad days.
There is always meaning to something higher.
Our life journey never ends.
There are new days every day.
Find love and find you're true self.
It can be all in yourself with knowing and loving yourself.
My Book Thieves
In 2013 i started to write a novel that was meant to be a movie about preventing suicide in people and find the meaning of life.
It was written to Hotell Øye in this part of Norway.
It was written there because of the beautiful scenery and the story of a ghost.
A woman committed suicide there for many years ago because of loosing her lover.
It has created a story and the Hotell has The Blue Room where it is said that there is the ghost of her.
The novel was to create love in two people meeting eachoter there.
One with a history of mental illness created by the system and people stealing some of her life.
It is to show narcissism and how it can effect people and steal away the life from others if they dont fight back.
The best fights is the one fought in peace and kindness, and true love conquer all.
The love in the manuscript / novel was meant to give so much hope and a movie to be watched several times to find the meaning and hope of love in humans.
There is a place for all of us if we only hold on to every trace we can find of hope, trust and love.
Love can be found all over the world.
But we have to face that there is a reality in the world.
We do get problems.
But need to live the way we want to with the health care that we need to have strength to face problems.
The novel was stolen from me in the hospital.
But i still do remember what i wrote.
I read it at another hospital to a contact person and a patients that believed he was someone else. The patients got to be himself again of my reading to him.
Librarytheraphy and books can change a persons life forever if it is only good enough.
The doctors said to me that i could not think clearly, but i did.
And i wrote a lot.
The manuscript is stolen and i can't get it back.
It was not kind and i wonder a lot why they stole such a book ?
Prevention against troubles in life and crisis we need to work on every day.
Life is to be meaningful and fun, and there is love to all people.
And some like it alone, and that has to be accepted.
I find the truth in not falling into others sins and stay as the person i am, and i start when i am better to write the novel of preventing suicide again.
There is love, there is meaning and there is always the truth.
Know yourself and you're own truth by finding it in you're heart and live for a meaningful life until you are 118 years old.
Love yourself.
The Truth Comes Out In The End
I have been reading and writing on my novels about my true story in the psychiatric health field for years.
I talked to my mother today and she has not gotten any sceme on decision on forced treatment from the doctors at all during this years.
It is the law to send the schemes to the closest relatives to secure my right as a citizen in Norway.
I was isolated for three years with forced control to not have anything to do with the outer world. And i dont understand why a single mother and a nurse has been treated this way in Norway.
I have always lived peaceful and i have hard times every day of the treatment i have gotten and my life is ruined.
No doctor has sendt schemes on forced treatment to my mother so she could complain. And they have not informed her of the rights as a relative to secure me as a human by the norwegian law and the Human rights.
It has gotten a mess that goes all the way to the government and i talk to my lawyer to get the case of me to the Human Right Court in Strasbourg.
I go there when i am well to do this to get my life back and place the truth where it belongs.
And that is that i am a kind and loving mother and a nurse that writes a book about suicide that shall prevent people from committing this.
There is more dying from suicide than from terror and war.
Hold on to everybody.
There is meaning to life and the truth will come out always.
lørdag 6. august 2016
Buster Is Tv Cat And Is Not Scared
Buster got safer when his sister came here to the farm for some days.
He goes around safe and discovers the world.
He sits and watch tv together with me.
It is the news and the olympics in Rio.
fredag 5. august 2016
A Wonderful Life Today
I have been on the ocean today with boat.
It was an incredible feeling to feel this free and at peace together with calm sea and a little wind.
We went to the city and out to the islands and fished.
It is beautiful and wild scenery we have here on the west coast.
I forgot all about my illness ( that actually is gone when i am with normal and well people )
My son took me out on the ocean and he is very kind and we had a great time.
It was a grey day today but the sky was beautiful in the sunset.
I have had some troubles today because i revealed something done to me, by a mail sendt to me not on purpose, it should be sendt to someone else. But i got it.
And understand that the paranoia i sometimes feel is reality.
I can't explain more yet.
But the day turned out beautiful and kind because of my son and his kindness.
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