onsdag 31. august 2016
ABBA - The Winner Takes It All (1980) HD 0815007
They have fooled me in the head and gave scheme with mistakes - i am writing for kindness.
tirsdag 30. august 2016
Céline Dion - The Power Of Love (Official Video)
Drink water and watch you're blood sugar levels. Kind and Sleep Well :-)
Reality Check
Today i have been very tired of all that they do to me.
The reality is kind.
I have had visit and been out with a good friend and got good hugs and the courage to go on.
The reality is that i have spent the evening painting and writing.
Teddy and Buster relax and stay together with me when i paint and draw.
Teddy gave his foot to the water when i took picture.
He told me to drink more water.
He is very kind and observant.
Teddy and Buster is very kind and protects me when i paint so people should not analyze it to be something more than what it is.
It is actions of love for humans and to give hope that makes me paint and draw
" The Little Prince Returns ".
Reality is kind and relaxing.
Smarte katter velger Pussi Sensations Crunchy!
They are taking away my cats because of cat food. It is not illegal and i wonder what they are in the head and are health care workers. I could tell a long story about this, and is going to Human Right Court in Strasbourg. I am kind and think very nice. The kittens sleeps of me and have a good quality life here on the farm. Veterinary will understand what they are in the head. Pussi cat food i recommend to all cat owners. Kind - it is to protect you.
mandag 29. august 2016
Buster Is Relaxed
Buster is safe and relaxed.
Bought kittens sleeps now and is relaxing and has a good life here at the farm.
Animals helps you out when you have a difficult time.
It Hurts - But I Paint
It hurts a lot all that is going on. I am kind and scared of it all happening.
But i paint to ease my mind and have control and meaning of life.
The kittens are relaxed and are sleeping.
It is blowing outside and it starts to get autumn weather.
I live meaningful but are thorned down to not trust anybody.
I focus on the novel
" The Little Prince Returns "
and this is one of the illustrations to the book.
The Little Prince Survived.
It gives me comfort and meaning.
I am kind.
Somebody Tries To Kill Me
I have hard times surviving and a cab driver pointed at me two times.
I invited one close to me today to get help to survive.
I told about what people do to me, it is important to say that many are kind.
But mental clicking is existing and the one visiting me today made two fingers beside his mouth for a while. It is called " Vagface " and i dont know why people do it towards others.
It is in the story that my doctor also sits this way and have been doing it for years.
They are worse in the head than me.
They also wanted the cats away.
I have right to life.
Right to Live.
Right to Privacy
and
right to tell what is going on.
I die of this if it continues.
Two nurses was kind to me today and understood.
They asked me to call if i could not take anymore.
Someone close to me is playing games and theatre with the whole world.
If i get locked up by telling this the world is very wrong.
I am kind and tries to live in privacy and peace.
Stay strong.
And if someone knows why they do it, please make a comment.
fredag 26. august 2016
torsdag 25. august 2016
onsdag 24. august 2016
My Day So Far
Buster have been " The bucket Thief " today and is settling in to be more relaxed and comfortable in his new home.
Sometimes it takes time to settle in, animals and people are different.
I struggle with a little bit of anxiety of what the doctors and nurses do, because they think different about me than what i really am. Honestly i dont understand them, but i am kind to them.
To help my mind out of troubles i bought a postcard for a friend i am going to write to.
It is a little puppy loving music.
I hope to have a dog next year if i can get off medication.
Everything is kind here and i sleep mostly because i have a hard time and is very sad about all happening to me.
But kind and funny cats and a cosy card helps me.
Sometimes it is good to take the life simple.
tirsdag 23. august 2016
How I Looks Like Sometimes On A Good Day
I am kind and in a terrible mess of the doctors.
I am at home and somebody wonders a lot about me.
They wanted me to stay poor and not have money.
I dont know why they are scared of me having money.
Read : Vitamin and Mineral Analysis for home based use.
It is an invention i have.
The thrill in all the wondering i dont want to be a part of.
I draw and paint and stay here at the farm.
A song i like a lot i present here :
mandag 22. august 2016
Metallica - The Unforgiven (Video)
I was threatened on life of nurses. ICN gets my report, save hospitals. If i die Norway goes under.
I am kind.
Smokie - Needles and Pins (Official Video)
I understood nurses today, they stood all the time and did something more. They play with my life and i can die of what they did. ICN - papers have it all. I need help !!!
søndag 21. august 2016
Leif Juster - Telefon til landet
I played Leif Juster hospitalized and nobody understood me, but i laughed a lot.
lørdag 20. august 2016
fredag 19. august 2016
Ozzy Osbourne - "Dreamer"
" Quality Dreamer " was kind, an unforgettable horse, he was alias " Camaro " - Manchester United saves the world.
Alanis Morissette - Hands Clean (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
A horse told me this :-) I am kind :-) Horses talks :-)
A Talk With A Horse
I am not going to be hospitalized more ever.
I went out in the garden to the horses with apples.
Ryvar, the Northland Horse was very kind to me because i grieve, and that is natural after all i have been through.
I said to Ryvar : " I hurt a lot " and started to cry.
The horse answered with licking my hands gentle.
I cried silent tears and said to him :
" You can do it, save the world. "
He turned his head to my neighbor and yawned several times.
He told me to go to the neighbors for friends and talks and sleep well to us all.
Horses are very intelligent and extremely kind.
They can give us the best talks and understanding about who we are.
Peace On Earth
I will cry for three years, and start a new life with painting and writing and write the novel and the movie : Frozen Soldier.
It is to give people the understanding of reality in 2016 and what love is. Not sex. I am brave and has risked my life to save people. I am in danger and need sometimes help. But i make it through with the farm, horses, cats and bird...and by the sea i once saw a whale and killer whales, and i walk the shorelines for years to see the whales. Smile. Peace On Earth - hope and pray for it to happen. You can do more than you believe. So believe in the ones fighting for peace. Peacekeeping mission...
Paradise
I have a good day, even though i am low in energy, but things go around anyway and i dont strive to do the most in the world. Buster the kitten has become friend with the horses. He sits outside together with them, but i did not manage to take a picture.
Ryvar is gentle and kind and he relax together with me.
He nearly fell asleep together with me.
Horses can tell us something in how to live our life.
Horses are really relaxing and peaceful animals that likes to take the days gentle and only rest and eat. The horses are in my garden and i can see them all the time.
Shanti, the arabian gelding had a little bird on his back.
All the life here on the farm is healing mentally and a good everyday life.
I got all my childhood dreams fulfilled.
I am kind and clean the house today and try to live an ordinary life.
In an ordinary life you find the true meaning and dreams fulfilled.
You dont need to conquer the world, but live after you're health and what the days gives you with meaning.
I got the meaning today.
torsdag 18. august 2016
I Painted Pictures In My Mind All The Time
I hope you all laugh and knows that happy endings is really the true story of life.
The Little Prince survived and the answer and the riddle i understood in the spring 2002 at my first hospitalization.
I have had eight diagnosis and no doctor has ever known where i have and is in my mind. But the true story is that humans got soul.
I believe in a lots of things and work for a better planet and universe for us all.
There is NASA.
And they love cats also and is kind.
I have been together with the little prince all the time since 2002.
Nobody understood it before now.
I paint in my mind all the time and it saves me.
Now the truth is about me is out,
but i dont know it all and have my question marks,
without turning into Mark.
Life is fun and shall always be like this.
There can be the best laughs in suffering and show the true meaning of life and what you are as a person.
Teddy ( Ted ) is very kind and protects my head and my paintings.
I have not needed tranquilizers since i got the cats.
I have never taken much, but because of Teddy and Buster i sleep well and is mentally focused on them and paintings all the time.
I write on the book :
" The Little Prince Returns ".
The true story is that he never left.
onsdag 17. august 2016
Green Day
It is Green Day here, and i have been out walking and bicycling today before visit of a health care team. I got fresh in my mind and happy on walking in the sunny days here. It gives comfort and healing to the soul.
I was together with the horses that goes on the pastures for the summer.
I had a positive meeting with the doctor today.
She talked good to me about my plans for the future and said that i was not ill now.
I asked then why i was on forced treatment because i am not a dangerous person.
She said it is because i refuse to take medication when i am in voluntary treatment.
We talked about my plans for the future and she said it was realistic and i told i am working on the novel : " The Return of The Little Prince. "
It gives me joy and hope and describe the meaning of life and how hard it can be sometimes.
But that everything can come to an understanding.
I am in hope for the future now and the doctor listened good to me on how i mean the treatment in psychiatric should be and that i might work in the psychiatric field in about some years.
I must learn more and recover fully myself.
There is hope for all suffering from a mental illness.
Use the nature to get well and healthy again.
mandag 15. august 2016
God is Great
Somebody clicked me mentally with a picture to a song. I am kind. Knowing something and writing a novel for peace on earth. Someone does something towards me. They forgot i am educated as a nurse. And have been playing with me. It is no fun. God is Great. I am doing okay.
The Little Prince Is Back
I have been drawing the whole evening together with the cats.
When i was to take picture of the painting Teddy laid down beside it and guarded it.
He refused to go away.
In the spring 2002 i understood the book of Antoine de Saint-Exupèry.
The Little Prince is a good book and i understood that the Litle Prince had returned in 2002 when i was stranded in a mental institution.
I understood the book and the answer on the question in the book.
I will be writing about the Little Prince the next coming year.
And paint and draw.
If you understand this picture, you understand the whole novel about the Little Prince.
And to joy for us all
The Little Prince has been back since 2002 and he has been hiding.
Now it is time he comes to us all to make us understand the true meaning of love and life and the importance in traveling.
Kenny Loggins - Danger Zone
I am doing something very kind to make everybody sleep well, i present it in about two hours.
These Guys will sleep well, i know the answer on something. The Litle Prince.
lørdag 13. august 2016
fredag 12. august 2016
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onsdag 10. august 2016
tirsdag 9. august 2016
Buster And Teddy Loves U2 - U2 Heals Anxiety In Kittens
Buster is kind and relax of U2 and they stay a little bit on guard when they listen to U2.
Zooropa is kind and Buster heals of U2, he has been very scared.
Teddy Is Kind And Sleeps Of U2
Teddy sleeps well of U2 and is staying together with me all the time.
Buster has also stayed with the computer but was camera shy.
Zooropa
Teddy loves U2 and stay listening and on guard to save them mentally.
He loves the computer and has stayed nearly the whole evening by the computer.
The kittens are extremely kind and sleeps in my hands.
mandag 8. august 2016
Rockwell - Somebody's Watching Me
I am kind and laughing, i am not paranoid. Somebody har done something. Kind.
søndag 7. august 2016
This Is The Scenery Of My Novel That Got Stolen
This is the place i have chosen to write about in the Novel and the nature around.
We in the family has a cabin nearby and i will stay there to write and get in contact with the true feeling of nature, life and myself.
It is a novel for experience life and find meaning in every moment, even at bad days.
There is always meaning to something higher.
Our life journey never ends.
There are new days every day.
Find love and find you're true self.
It can be all in yourself with knowing and loving yourself.
My Book Thieves
In 2013 i started to write a novel that was meant to be a movie about preventing suicide in people and find the meaning of life.
It was written to Hotell Øye in this part of Norway.
It was written there because of the beautiful scenery and the story of a ghost.
A woman committed suicide there for many years ago because of loosing her lover.
It has created a story and the Hotell has The Blue Room where it is said that there is the ghost of her.
The novel was to create love in two people meeting eachoter there.
One with a history of mental illness created by the system and people stealing some of her life.
It is to show narcissism and how it can effect people and steal away the life from others if they dont fight back.
The best fights is the one fought in peace and kindness, and true love conquer all.
The love in the manuscript / novel was meant to give so much hope and a movie to be watched several times to find the meaning and hope of love in humans.
There is a place for all of us if we only hold on to every trace we can find of hope, trust and love.
Love can be found all over the world.
But we have to face that there is a reality in the world.
We do get problems.
But need to live the way we want to with the health care that we need to have strength to face problems.
The novel was stolen from me in the hospital.
But i still do remember what i wrote.
I read it at another hospital to a contact person and a patients that believed he was someone else. The patients got to be himself again of my reading to him.
Librarytheraphy and books can change a persons life forever if it is only good enough.
The doctors said to me that i could not think clearly, but i did.
And i wrote a lot.
The manuscript is stolen and i can't get it back.
It was not kind and i wonder a lot why they stole such a book ?
Prevention against troubles in life and crisis we need to work on every day.
Life is to be meaningful and fun, and there is love to all people.
And some like it alone, and that has to be accepted.
I find the truth in not falling into others sins and stay as the person i am, and i start when i am better to write the novel of preventing suicide again.
There is love, there is meaning and there is always the truth.
Know yourself and you're own truth by finding it in you're heart and live for a meaningful life until you are 118 years old.
Love yourself.
The Truth Comes Out In The End
I have been reading and writing on my novels about my true story in the psychiatric health field for years.
I talked to my mother today and she has not gotten any sceme on decision on forced treatment from the doctors at all during this years.
It is the law to send the schemes to the closest relatives to secure my right as a citizen in Norway.
I was isolated for three years with forced control to not have anything to do with the outer world. And i dont understand why a single mother and a nurse has been treated this way in Norway.
I have always lived peaceful and i have hard times every day of the treatment i have gotten and my life is ruined.
No doctor has sendt schemes on forced treatment to my mother so she could complain. And they have not informed her of the rights as a relative to secure me as a human by the norwegian law and the Human rights.
It has gotten a mess that goes all the way to the government and i talk to my lawyer to get the case of me to the Human Right Court in Strasbourg.
I go there when i am well to do this to get my life back and place the truth where it belongs.
And that is that i am a kind and loving mother and a nurse that writes a book about suicide that shall prevent people from committing this.
There is more dying from suicide than from terror and war.
Hold on to everybody.
There is meaning to life and the truth will come out always.
lørdag 6. august 2016
Buster Is Tv Cat And Is Not Scared
Buster got safer when his sister came here to the farm for some days.
He goes around safe and discovers the world.
He sits and watch tv together with me.
It is the news and the olympics in Rio.
fredag 5. august 2016
A Wonderful Life Today
I have been on the ocean today with boat.
It was an incredible feeling to feel this free and at peace together with calm sea and a little wind.
We went to the city and out to the islands and fished.
It is beautiful and wild scenery we have here on the west coast.
I forgot all about my illness ( that actually is gone when i am with normal and well people )
My son took me out on the ocean and he is very kind and we had a great time.
It was a grey day today but the sky was beautiful in the sunset.
I have had some troubles today because i revealed something done to me, by a mail sendt to me not on purpose, it should be sendt to someone else. But i got it.
And understand that the paranoia i sometimes feel is reality.
I can't explain more yet.
But the day turned out beautiful and kind because of my son and his kindness.
torsdag 4. august 2016
Teddy Is A Computer Cat
I changed the cat food and the kittens got very active.
They have played in the house for hours when i have written on novel number two in a trilogy.
When i wrote to U2 my computer light went down.
I dont understand why and thought someone had done it to me.
But i might have pushed a button for it.
I have had problem seeing and tried to fix it.
But i did not manage.
Right now Teddy walked over the Mac and the light went on again.
Teddy fixed it.
I laughed a lot of this.
Sometimes you need help from someone smarter than yourself.
Teddy is doing great and Buster is together with us.
A bit scared and shy but he has stayed together with us the whole evening.
I thought i failed with the kittens, but i was to soon to judge myself in this.
We are all doing fine, even if i have had a terrible day with headache and tiredness and not felt so well.
But i have had good laughs with the kittens and they help me out in mysterious ways.
onsdag 3. august 2016
Be Yourself
I talked to someone close to me about what i have experienced after years in psychiatric treatment.
It is inspiration and copying the nurses and some doctors do with patients.
A patients fights for they`re identity being hospitalized and trying to make sense of it all.
I discovered when i bought myself new things that were beautiful that other nurses wanted the same. Not all. But many. It was all from books, perfume and clothing.
I have style when i want to, but my identity is so clear that i dont need to dress up all the time. I can stay low and not bother so much on what i wear or smell.
But i said today to one i talked to that many patients have clearer identity than other nurses and more meaning to life. They dont copy or steal others life marks.
Patients are very kind and some of my fellow patients i have daily contact with and they are more understanding and well than many nurses.
It got me to wonder a lot on how the system works.
When nurses find inspiration in patients and not in they're own life they have to go through themselves and give the patients credit for this. They usually dont do this.
The world is a crazy place and i have been witness and made experiences on how crazy it can get.
Sometimes i have wondered if patients are more well in they're own suffering than many working in the health field.
To work in the health field you must have a clear and solid identity and put aside you're ego when you work with patients.
The patients suffers and when they can keep they`re own life in private and be themselves without people wanting to be like them.
It is really unbelievable.
People need to go they`re own way and not copy people in crisis and create more problems.
I am kind and just want people to think over what they do against patients and treat them not good and steal they're style.
To identify with a patient is not healthy.
Teddy Is Comfy In The House
Teddy is very safe and secure and follows me wherever i go.
He has chosen me and is not so much together with Buster.
Buster is scared still, but safer.
He comes in the living room and stay there on a chair, but they are not as good friends as they were the first time in the house, when they found security in staying together.
Teddy is safe on nearly all people.
I have had some visitors of friends and family and Teddy sleeps when i have visits.
He stay beside me on a pillow all the time.
At night bouth kittens stay together with me in the bed.
I have layed over they`re side of the bed a soft blanket.
They like that a lot.
I have had a hard day.
I have had visitors of bought friends and family, but i have had a headache and been tired of the medications.
It is hard staying in what they call a crazy life, but i am not so very crazy.
I just understand a lot.
tirsdag 2. august 2016
Bee Gees - Stayin' Alive (1977)
Bono understood something. I am smiling - laugh :-) Bono has got the answer og er staying`alive in all.
mandag 1. august 2016
Madrugada - The Kids Are On High Street [Official Music Video] [2005]
I Understand - picture is taken in church. Vertigo
" Dont show me the money, show me the man " - and here he is and he is not alone ever. Love you Sivert. Good luck, you are the best man in the world.
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