Surprise Hour.

In this evening an assistant wanted to take me to the city to buy a blue jeans.

We went to " Hennes and Mauritz " 

and I got a good jeans for 299,- Norwegian Krone.

It is about 40 usd.

I also got a t-shirt on sale and gave only 50,- Norwegian Krone.

It is about 8 usd.

I was happy about this, and it is for everyday use.

My boots i bought for some years ago.

I will now go to bed and study something.

I study criminology to understand the society.

The society and the crime is run by money.

This book is good but Sweden has come longer in the investigation of crime than Norway and give out more criminology books.

I will order books from Sweden later.

All i study is for understanding and writing novels.

I have written over 100 pages of an action novel.

It is agents novels.

I also discovered a store in the city called :

" Volt. "

It was very exclusive mens clothing.

I buy some christmas presents there.

The store " Volt " was unbelivable good.

You got to see it to believe it.

I had a good talk there.

A Very Good Day In The City Aalesund In Norway.

Today my soul opened at visiting an art gallery in the city Aalesund.

The artist Rune Furelid showed me his paintings.

He has been a student of the known painter :

Odd Nerdrum.

I was mind blown with good impressions.

This painting is of the city Aalesund.

I had a good talk with the artist that stood and painted when i was in his gallery.

Art is the way to you're heart.

It can often give more meaning to you than a realistic picture.

I invite you all to come to the city Aalesund and see how kind people are there.

I have laughed a lot today,

and also joined forces with some men from USA that i met in the street.

They was very kind to me.

The city Aalesund also were covered of magical post it notes.

There was quotes and words about love and peace and how to take care of yourself.

I walked around a lot and saw a lot of these post it notes.

I was also in a shop that sells all you need to kitchen and dining.

There was extremly good service and i got a good talk.

The man working there invited me on tomato bread and olive oil.

It tasted delicious.

The man i promised to do all my christmas shopping in his store.

I can not wait for the christmas spirit in the street where the store is.

It is a walking street called : " Kongens gate. "

( The Kings Street. )

I have had more fun today than what i have had in years.

And i found out i am easy to please and entertain.

People makes me happy.

Aalesund was today a very magical place in good weather.

My pictures are taken with iPhone 7,

my Sony Camera do not work.

I will come back later with more news about the artist :

Rune Furelid.

62°NORD

Darius Rucker - Wagon Wheel

Calendar Girl.

Today i fell in love with reality.

I found this calendar at a country store here at The Islands Of Giske County.

It did not cost more than 139,- Norwegian Krone.

It is 20 usd.

It is card in wood that you can change every day.

It is a lifetime calendar.

The day has been hard, but i survive with laughing at people being fun.

My Sony Camera do not work so the pictures are not at the best.

But someone say :

" It is better to give it a try, than not. "

This is me 43 years old and newly shaved my head.

I did this because i am educated as a nurse and wanted to show empathy and support to people having cancer. I have love for the people suffering from this illness.

The weird thing is that i get more compliments with shaved head, than with long hair.

Its is my support hair cut.

I wear today a jacket from the brand " Desigual. "

I love this jacket.

I got laughter attack when i got photographed.

It was fun.

I am not the most photogenic person, but it is not my main factor to show beauty,

but an ordinary body and face.

The " Desigual " jacket is bought at :

Ellos

Ellos also gave me a huge credit without credit checking me when i shopped.

They have very good clothing and the jeans is also bought there for only 239,- nkr.

It is 35 usd.

I am still standing on my feets after what i have been through.

I manage life with a good laugh.

And knows that clothing can make people look at you with different thoughts.

I am very kind and walk my small walks for pleasure and fun.

It is not how much you exercise, but how you do it.

I have managed to go down from nearly 100 kilos to 70 kilos.

I am in the size medium.

And know that everybody can get they`re own special look.

The " Desigual " jacket costed 800 nkr.

It is 115 usd.

I wear it all the time.

I also paint and write poems.

To walk for me and see different things and nature is healing for me.

Never give up on yourself and know that people who understand and is kind are everywhere.

Wait for them to show up.

Rachel Platten - Stand By You (Official Video)

Surprises From " Apotek 1 " ( Pharmacy 1 )

Today i got a surprise by " Apotek 1 " ( Pharmacy 1 ) in Giske County.

I was there to get side effect medication and they signed with the number "8 ".

There is a story behind this, but i keep it close to my heart a while more.

The woman working there gave me a :

" Eucerin Night Cream "

called :

" Even brighter. "

It is a cream for reducing redness in the skin and other skin marks.

I am in my 40`ties and have protected my skin good.

I have nearly no wrinkles.

This night i start to test out this cream.

It is light and smooth and protects the skin good.

I got the Eucerin Cream for free,

and it is an expensive cream because of how it works.

The woman in the pharmacy gave me advices for treating my skin.

I thank them for being the very best and a safe pharmacy.

I have been out walking my small walks for exercising myself back again.

I went down to the shorelines by the beautiful islands i live on.

It has been a day worth living,

and kind people can show up by surprise and change the way you look.

I have a little bit redness in my skin,

and i will try to see if the " Eucerin " cream can remove this in a good way.

I look forward to do this.

Jimmy Nail - Cowboy Dreams (Original Video Clip)

angel on my shoulder

When you do not have a clue - someone else got...

The last night i had a nightmare.

It shook me the whole day.

I was out of myself and felt depressed.

To live in an institution and not being the most crazy person is not easy.

But it gives you many good laughs.

You learn to love the looneys including myself.

It is time to understand the crazy peoples life.

It is not always so very bad.

But life meets you wherever you are.

It find you and gives you challenges.

I blogged earlier that not so many people have a clue on what is really going on in the world.

The best thing you do is to read and talk to people.

Today i spent the day painting and a little trip to the city to get prizes on artistic painting equipments.

I am going to hold a class for workers and people that lives here in art.

The course is called :

" The Art Of Saving Lives. "

It is meant as a personal project for people to find they're own meaning of theyre life, with painting they're life as they want as they self wish.

Without copying or looking at others for finding they're way.

It is also a painting for future hopes and dreams.

My secret is that i do not write down goals.

I paint them.

It is better to have a visualized picture in you're mind in where you want to go in you're life.

But life gives you surprises.

Today i also was sad that i had no money left.

I do not get my welfare money before the 20.September.

But an assistant that has known me nearly my entire life said :

" Hey do not be sad, i will sell some of you're pictures for you. "

She got to work.

And...

I sold 3 pictures for 100 us dollars.

She said :

" We price them down and when people know more about you, we prize them up. "

We went to the store together so i could shop in food and cigarettes.

I was humble of all her kindness.

She said :

" I am you're manager and i do not give up until you have an exhibition in New York. "

I can not manage to dream about this myself.

But she is a dream keeper that dreams when you do not have the ability to dream for yourself.

We laughed a lot this afternoon and it was good to be alive.

I haven't felt that way in many months.

Even though i have had many good laughs.

She brought back my hope that i could make myself a living and get to be self helped with money and doing what i have loved my entire life.

That is to paint and write.

I also read poems to them.

I have as a project in a course i take to get well to write a poem book for publishing.

It is very revealing sometimes when you do not have a clue yourself on how to handle the day and the problems. That someone is wise enough to lead you and give you the clue.

Wait for help and dare to ask questions when you feel blue and is in suffering.

Life gives you solutions with working together with people you can trust.

Do not give up on yourself and have patience.

You`re true road can open when you suffer the most.

I am peaceful now and have a good time, 

and is thankful that i have gotten food for the entire weekend.

Let Peace Be You're Mile.

This picture is called : " Victory. "

It is the life of someone that has struggled and i find it beautiful and gorgeous.

It gives me the maning to walk the small roads here on the islands as i did today.

I struggle with family problems.

It is a quite big problem in my life.

I have been held for 5 years on forced treatment, and i have not done anything wrong or bad.

I just do not understand.

I do not get help and support from my family, and it is hard.

I am kind and loving and calm all the time.

But ask them questions about this five years, and do not get an answer.

It has been a hard day.

But in the evening i know i won my own life back in that i reacted to it all with calmness and peace.

It is not easy with people playing the victim all the time,

when it is really me with the five years of isolation from people who has the worse traumas.

I do not get met with empathy in my family for this.

To walk on in life is to stay strong, and not let anyone break you.

I wanted to hospitalize myself this evening, but i got a no and that i should talk to the people here where i live now.

Its hard, it is shitty and it gives me grieve.

After all i have managed to turned the day into a nice time.

I write poems as therapy and for making and publish a book.

I do this in the bed before i go to sleep.

I have written a poem and my thoughts tells me who i am and what i want to give to the world.

A book of poems is timeless.

It will survive my life.

And show the true meaning of what i want to do with my life.

That is writing for people suffering, to find meaning, peace, joy, love and inspiration to go on.

It is possible even in the hardest times.

People do get ill.

It is a fact.

Love break ups can make you go to you're ground levels and make you feel crazy.

It is hard.

I write poems for the loving once.

To get they're feelings back to normal, give comfort and make them move on.

It is also a poem book for people struggling mentally.

Millions do.

I have hope for them all.

It is possible if you adjust you're pride down to nothing at all.

Then you will start to laugh at much more than what you used to do.

LL Cool J - Phenomenon

U2- Volcano (Official-Unofficial) Music Video

Leonard Cohen - First We Take Manhattan

Bruce Springsteen - You Never Can Tell

I Finally Understood What Is Happening ( ? )

Today i have spent at ease and in peace as most of the days.

I have thought my life is in all ruins and destroyed by the Norwegian psychiatric health field.

I have traumas from 5 years of forced treatment.

The weird thing is that i laugh.

Because...

The story is long.

They made a nurse and a single mom into a chronicle case with isolation and forced treatment for three years.

I found out i was stronger than astronauts in NASA,

because i did not have the help the astronauts in NASA has.

I was held in a cold white room with no fun and gaming and tricks all the time to deprive my thoughts. I got ill of the treatment and to have fun and meaning i started to play role plays with the nurses and the doctors.

I had a reason for the acting, to publish my psychiatric journal as a novel

I laugh so much right now,

even though i am a patient under treatment and a nurse.

I have read psychology and religion for over 25 years.

But my best teacher was my granny that ended up to be 105 years old.

She had a clue, and nearly never left the house she lived in.

She was a christian and a good one.

She nearly never went to church.

She thought me about love and God.

Why i have been held on forced treatment i do not know.

I have tape recording with a meeting with a doctor that i am kind, loving and caring.

( It involves that i have been in contact with presidents to make the world a better place )

I understood today that really just a few people have a clue.

Because you never know what happens next in you're life ?

You have three choices :

1. Freak Out.

2. Laugh.

3. Relax the rest of you're life.

I choose two points : To laugh and have peace the rest of my life.

I live in an institution for patients with chronical mental illness.

There are eight people living here.

I am under rehabilitation and can move out now if i want to.

But today i decided to live here for some years to have meaning, excitement and fun.

There always happens something here.

The weird part is that if people get jealous on crazy peoples lifestyle i will laugh the rest of my life.

I have a terrasse by the road and people walk passed the place and talk to me and i get to hear news.

When you manage to survive the system and talk to people in a gentle way, people end up to be good people. But they really know very little.

The night assistants that are here now agreed with me that nobody have a clue.

The fun is the crazy life. There are a lot of love and kindness, and i stay here writing novels, poems, paint and listen to music. I find my meaning in this.

I am asked to hold classes in art and the meaning of life to the people who lives here and the people that works here.

It is a patients teaching them about life.

How ill i am i really do not know.

The best thing in life is to learn about the challenges life gives you and learn from them.

You will end up wiser, and you will learn how to survive.

There are a lot of good things happening in the psychiatric health field.

So never give up.

I have struggled with suicidal thoughts of the medication i get and some people playing me.

I do not play myself. I have respect for people but tell them my meaning if they are gaming with me.

My grandmother never played with people.

She sat in her house knitting all the time and read magazines and watched tv.

She had a lot of love to give.

And gave to all her family.

The meaning is love in you're life.

I wonder if i am the first mental ill patient that wants to stay in the system for education and excitement and teaching people about life.

Today i quit smoking and will live healthier.

I am under a new treatment as the first one in Norway with orthomolecular treatment with vitamins and minerals.

My reason of blogging is to give people a hope.

That things are not what they always seem and you can find love in the strangest places.

Have you a clue ?

If you dont you can hospitalize yourself to get a clue and an education if you read.

It is possible to survive the most ridiculous treatment.

I understand the people that has treated me until now have been in massive psychosis and delusional against me. 

I do something with it in a while.

More later...

Find you're meaning with love and friendship.

Chair Up

A fresh walk in summer rain revealed a secret by the shorelines.

People knows how to protect themselves and i know a place i can go and swim.

I laughed for myself of the little mystery of the chair and something else.

I walked with a good friend.

We bought know we live in troubled times.

That is no lie.

Every human on this earth has the right to react on what is going on in this world.

It is hard, and it will be rough.

But to walk will give you the power to relax and find you're spirit by the nature of the coast, the mountains and the beaches.

A walk can change you're life.

The talk of trust is good to have, in friends that forgives and hold on to you.

Even though you're only human.

The friends that see through you and find you're spirit calm and peaceful even though you walk to troubles, conflicts and manipulation are good to have.

We two women managed a long walk today.

I discovered a little secret of myself.

We walked through high grass on a pasture before the shoreline,

and i got adventurous as a little child.

I laughed at myself and how little i need before i feel joy.

It was a discover of truth in me that i am easy to please.

That is why i also find a lot of meaning in life.

Even though i have gone through dark times in my life.

I have felt apathy of the world and how much trouble that are created.

I try to stay out of trouble.

But i do not put up with people that plays and manipulates my life.

It happens to me.

But today i managed to walk a long walk with a friend in fresh summer rain.

The rain was relieving and soothing and was sendt from heaven.

We went over slippery rocks and walked good.

It is really mental training walking on rocks by the sea.

We bought managed well after years with illness.

But how ill have we really been ?

I found out that the really most wisest men and women is the ones living with an illness.

They know what love and true friendship is.

They also forgive and understand.

Walk On Brave

I have found out that i have grown in spirit after my illness.

I do not need as much as i did before.

I do not want to eat up the world.

There is alway a passion for more in people.

Not all, but in quite many.

The need for always more can be a hunger that drives you to extreme actions.

When you have struggled in life and has reached a age of where you're well being is close to have just simple things in life.

Like a good friend.

I do not have many friends,

but welcome new ones with kindness and honesty  and hope to get the same back.

Life goes in ups and downs.

Everyday battles to structure a natural life by the seaside and close to the city.

I have started a new life since i found out that i am more secure in my self than many doctors and medical students. 

You grow stronger going through the psychiatric health field.

This blogg is for people wanting to fint a country life where they are.

It also includes walks that are overcome by walking in peace with the mind.

A good friend of mine and i walked to the seaside today.

We had a great time, just sitting there and opening out spiritual senses to the nature.

The soothing calmness of a kind ocean by summer giving us the sounds our spirit needed.

I took pictures of my friend so she could have to her fb account.

They became good.

She straiten out towards the heaven for reaching the sky.

We are friends that have had rough times, but do things together that keeps us well.

To live by the joy of life when you can suffer is an incredible strength.

This lady can make magic as a wizard by turning bad problems around.

She is my best friend.

We walk the miles together

and will rediscover our lives and heal together.

We laugh a lot together and know we are not the most crazy ones.

We have everyday magic together.

If I Can Dream A Dream.

Things are happening here with me.

There is space in the community i live in on the west coast of Norway for a shop.

It is four islands connected together in a small community.

Here are the possibility for the needs of the citizens of the islands to start a old fashioned store with  a new style. 

I am planning to open a country store.

I have the dream with me and know it can work out well.

The store will have groceries, perfumes and cosmetics, clothing and sporting equipment.

It is my place in life.

I want to live slow after all i have been through and not stress to much.

I start this with two empty hands and see if i can build it with a project from the town hall.

It is possible and i can't wait to get started.

It will be a kind place that will welcome all customers with service and guidance to find they're true spirit in a natural life.

To live by the pulse of the countryside and the seaside.

We are surrounded by water in a beautiful landscape and scene of Norway.

I want to move people out of meaningless lives and move them to carry on and be comforted with a store that gives nearly all you need.

I live after the saying :

" There are always new roads to walk on... "

Elvis Presley Suspicious Minds Live in Las Vegas

Metallica - Tuesday's Gone - ( video muisc Official® by haythem abidi )

Dr. Hook & the Medcicine Show - Dancing With The Mad (Bal hos de gale)

Suicide Squad Song | "Voices In My Head" | #NerdOut! (Unofficial Suicide...

The True Meaning Of The Life Of A Crazy Person.

There is hope for all of us. 

Even the crazy ones.

If you live life to the fullest, you can end up trying to be a crazy person.

Even if it was not you're intention in the first place.

The real thing with me is that i educated my self to become a nurse.

That worked pretty well.

But as i moved on with my workdays i started to realize the world had gone mad.

I hospitalized myself.

It ended up with a journey from 2002 - 20017 with the status that i have had 8 diagnosis.

I have read a lot about all of them.

The main thing with a mental illness is that it often start out with problems people can relate to.

And often it is the " healthy " people treating us crazy ones mean.

To find meaning in suffering you do with staying true to yourself.

That was the main thing with me, i did not want to change to please others and live a life in depression and meaningless with not being anybody.

You're values forms you're personality.

To be crazy in life is not the worse thing.

The worse thing is to live a lie.

To be not yourself.

I have had practice in the psychiatric health field as a nurse and a student of life.

Crazy or not crazy.

The thing i have learned is that all people have issues.

The ones in the end turning up better than healthy people is the patients.

They have more understanding and know the system and feel with you when you are down.

Empathy a patients can show high skills in.

When patients show more healthy reactions than doctors,

the crazy ones seems to become a normal person, with a lot of fun.

The meaning of it all is not to try to fit in all places.

But to find friends that supports you on you're life journey.

When you find good friends, it is not that bad to be crazy.

The crazy thing is that i have gotten a new doctor with education from USA.

I am the first in Norway under a special treatment with vitamins and minerals.

That doctor tells me that i am not crazy, but very strong.

It surprised me after hearing for years with deprivation in treatment that i was schizophrenic.

I did not believe it myself.

But understood i was a little bit crazy.

I found meaning in my life with my son and my friends, and patients making me laugh a lot.

Mostly over people working in the health care units ending up more crazy than patients sometimes when problem occurred.

I believe there is a thin thin line in what is healthy, sane and what is madness.

I have tried it all.

The health care system has treated me bad.

I learned so much from it that i really believe that the ones being patients and crazy for some years shows up to be the most healthy ones in the world.

They understand by experience and learning what healthy people do towards them.

There is a lot of kind people in the world.

The crazy ones can end up to be the kindest.

I work for that people shall find faith to go through a crisis in life.

To become more aware over life through mindfullness and healing of traumas and depression.

It is possible with the right education of yourself and treatment you have to educated yourself on.

Follow me, and you will walk into a world to a person that needs to change her whole entire life in a new treatment called :

Orthemolecylar treatment.

I also need to change my nutrition.

Before i got ill i exercised a lot,

and now i am back in exercise.

I treat myself kind and find meaning in talking to myself.

I find an intelligent conversation in this and understood that most people dont dare to think out load.

I live in a little community on an island in Norway on the west coast.

Here are extremely  beautiful.

But here are weather and it changes all the time.

The meaning of being crazy is that you will find joy after a while.

In understanding by discovering the world that most people have problems.

The popular psychology has fooled the world to think that happiness all the time is the real thing. People pursue happiness all the time.

It become and addiction that ends in bipolar illness.

Because it is harder to face the problems in life when everything shall be happiness all the time.

What do not kill you, makes you stronger.

When you realize that problems will be there in life and you accept it and do not bother so much about it, you will find laughter in problems.

The crazy ones can really save the world with becoming guides for people in empathy, endurance and will power to stay in difficult treatment that really is not healthy.

The health care system can create chronicle patients.

People that become crazy for years.

But there is a way out.

Start to talk about what you experience as reality and what you think is wrong with the world.

When i did this, they signed me out of hospital.

The reality check is that crazy people has a lot to learn the world.

For me :

I choose to stay a bit crazy, even though i have a doctor not calling me crazy.

To Hold You Up In Hard Times.

Life can give you games you never really realized would happen to you.

I go through a deep crisis in my life, but stand tall still.

I have been under treatment for psychosis.

But i am not really sure it is psychosis, but a reaction to a world that has gone a bit over the edge.

I try to keep myself healthy and stay strong with the clothing that i like.

To be a psychiatric patient you need to understand some thing. 

1. Life is fun. ( When you realize that you are not the only one being mad you can start to laugh a lot.)

2. Walk every day to stay fit.

3. Talk to good friends ( they tend to be better than health care workers. )

4. Do not let anybody fool you to think you are more ill than you really are.

5. Play music.

6. Discover you're true self. Crisis in life can lead you to more meaning in life.

7. Travel ( change location and stay brave. )

8. Find you're talents.

9. Move on.

10. The trouble with trouble is trouble. Let it go.

I do not look as an ill person.

I am not sure that i am so ill, but a bit crazy.

I live on a love budget with welfare money, but manage my life well.

As a psychiatric patient : " Dress good. " It helps you to the picture in others that they look at you more well.

The Police - Every Breath You Take

Find Your Way - Jan Werner

Iron Maiden - Can I Play With Madness (Official Video)

Find You're Own Way

This blogg is for the ones that what to change they're life into they're own way.

Not a way that has been walked before.

But a new discovery through life and madness.

The crazy ones can be the most interesting people.

They`re way to find happiness through difficult times can be learned to healthy people, that the trick of comedy and laughter is to find mental peace in the most difficult ways in life.

I blogg about everyday life in a way that people will rediscover themselves and find true happiness.

I can recommend this book by Martin E.P. Seligman, Ph. D.

A way to discover you're own happiness and walk through life with a positive attitude no matter what has happened to you.

Life is hard.

Problems will get you at one point and may drive you to madness and sorrow.

But hold on.

There is always a way out.

To ask yourself questions.

Investigate yourself and release you're own inner power to have free thinking no matter where you live in the world.

The mind can work for you when you are depressed or afraid with that you talk to yourself in an inner discussion that will lead you to get curiosity to discover life.

Do not be afraid that you will live a boring life.

You can fill you're life with love, joy and laughter with living with you're own personality and find out that you are a strong person in what you are and what you believe in.

Question the flow of people searching for fame and beauty.

It leads us to a society that is shallow, because there are bad days.

Even the most beautiful once can suffer from depression and anxiety.

The society fools us to believe that we have to be perfect.

Be yourself.

It is the only way you can be perfect.

Make the best out of yourself with knowing that love is around you no matter where you go.

Green Day: "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams" - [Official Video]

Something is happening....kind.

U2 - Walk On

After Dark The Light Always Comes

I walk every day to get back to life again.

Norway is blessed with beautiful nature.

I live on a little island with forest and mountains and walk to heal.

The step you take with courage facing life again is good for you.

Walk on.

2015 PBR World Finals highlights

Jimmy Nail - Cowboy Dreams (Original Video Clip)

Ed Sheeran - The A Team [Official Video]

Lars Ole Godø & the crew - Crave your love (Godøyhallen 17 mai 2016)

Girl: ‘I am bullied. Bikers take care of me’

TINY DANCER - Elton John

Jimmy Nail - Cowboy Dreams (Original Video Clip)

Metallica: The Outlaw Torn (Live) [S&M]

Outlaw Wear Clothing Company.

I have understood something about life.

I will order from 

Outlaw Wear Company jeans.

I like them a lot. 

Somebody treat me bad.

Banana Airlines nordmenn er gale

Murray Head - One Night In Bangkok "From CHESS"

Louis Armstrong - Hello Dolly

Robbie Williams | Love My Life - Official Video

Dire Straits - Brothers in Arms

Rachel Platten - Stand By You (Official Video)

Bruce Springsteen - Streets Of Philadelphia

Suicide Squad - Official Trailer 1 [HD]

The Offspring - "Conspiracy of One" 2000 [Full Album]

Nancy Sinatra - These Boots Are Made for Walkin'

I kamp for frihet (Andre verdenskrig Norge)

U2 - No Line On The Horizon Live in Dublin [HD - High Quality]

Sivert Høyem - Sleepwalking Man (lyric video)