I Finally Understood What Is Happening ( ? )

Today i have spent at ease and in peace as most of the days.

I have thought my life is in all ruins and destroyed by the Norwegian psychiatric health field.

I have traumas from 5 years of forced treatment.

The weird thing is that i laugh.

Because...

The story is long.

They made a nurse and a single mom into a chronicle case with isolation and forced treatment for three years.

I found out i was stronger than astronauts in NASA,

because i did not have the help the astronauts in NASA has.

I was held in a cold white room with no fun and gaming and tricks all the time to deprive my thoughts. I got ill of the treatment and to have fun and meaning i started to play role plays with the nurses and the doctors.

I had a reason for the acting, to publish my psychiatric journal as a novel

I laugh so much right now,

even though i am a patient under treatment and a nurse.

I have read psychology and religion for over 25 years.

But my best teacher was my granny that ended up to be 105 years old.

She had a clue, and nearly never left the house she lived in.

She was a christian and a good one.

She nearly never went to church.

She thought me about love and God.

Why i have been held on forced treatment i do not know.

I have tape recording with a meeting with a doctor that i am kind, loving and caring.

( It involves that i have been in contact with presidents to make the world a better place )

I understood today that really just a few people have a clue.

Because you never know what happens next in you're life ?

You have three choices :

1. Freak Out.

2. Laugh.

3. Relax the rest of you're life.

I choose two points : To laugh and have peace the rest of my life.

I live in an institution for patients with chronical mental illness.

There are eight people living here.

I am under rehabilitation and can move out now if i want to.

But today i decided to live here for some years to have meaning, excitement and fun.

There always happens something here.

The weird part is that if people get jealous on crazy peoples lifestyle i will laugh the rest of my life.

I have a terrasse by the road and people walk passed the place and talk to me and i get to hear news.

When you manage to survive the system and talk to people in a gentle way, people end up to be good people. But they really know very little.

The night assistants that are here now agreed with me that nobody have a clue.

The fun is the crazy life. There are a lot of love and kindness, and i stay here writing novels, poems, paint and listen to music. I find my meaning in this.

I am asked to hold classes in art and the meaning of life to the people who lives here and the people that works here.

It is a patients teaching them about life.

How ill i am i really do not know.

The best thing in life is to learn about the challenges life gives you and learn from them.

You will end up wiser, and you will learn how to survive.

There are a lot of good things happening in the psychiatric health field.

So never give up.

I have struggled with suicidal thoughts of the medication i get and some people playing me.

I do not play myself. I have respect for people but tell them my meaning if they are gaming with me.

My grandmother never played with people.

She sat in her house knitting all the time and read magazines and watched tv.

She had a lot of love to give.

And gave to all her family.

The meaning is love in you're life.

I wonder if i am the first mental ill patient that wants to stay in the system for education and excitement and teaching people about life.

Today i quit smoking and will live healthier.

I am under a new treatment as the first one in Norway with orthomolecular treatment with vitamins and minerals.

My reason of blogging is to give people a hope.

That things are not what they always seem and you can find love in the strangest places.

Have you a clue ?

If you dont you can hospitalize yourself to get a clue and an education if you read.

It is possible to survive the most ridiculous treatment.

I understand the people that has treated me until now have been in massive psychosis and delusional against me. 

I do something with it in a while.

More later...

Find you're meaning with love and friendship.