Attention Seeking / Everyday Crime

The world has a lot of different personalities. Some of us seek a lot of attention on others.

I dont. I live a peaceful life at a farm, and blogg because i sometimes feel bored and has the urge for telling a true story about myself. I live in a little society and a small municipal and seek attention in small parts to get friends and love. That is a honest mission in life. It is okay to tell that you are lonely. The other side is people seeking attention in you by discussing something that they really dont know much about. I find that people seek attention in what i have been through because it is an exiting and thrilling part in psychology. The weird thing is that nobody asks me on what the true part of my life is. I know that people discuss me a lot. But they dont seek me. It is not paranoia. I know it is going on. When people seek attention all the time, it can be seen on as narcissism. And i find that some doctors finds it developing to read about my case and make judgements. The true part is that it is a severe depression that has made my symptoms of illness. I have gotten antidepressiva and starts to heal. That also includes that i blogg less. Because i dont have the need so much to tell what is the real thing. The real life is that we all seek attention, but when someone steal you're life to be better and starts to talk bad about the person they compete with it is narcissism. Real problems with a person is not narcissism. I believe the society will change in knowing good psychology. Psychology that seeks to make people ( and also animals ) to act they're best on a mission to serve mankind in the way the people has capacity to change interpersonal relations to the better. Love is a language all knows. But when people all the time make a problem out of another persons illness it can be seen on as a way to seek attention and ruin the life of an ill person. This is going on with me. I nearly do not talk to so very much people. Because i have found out that i want to live in peace and not conflicts. When i get better people start to play games with me and compete. It is really hard when my true intention is to make people at they're best in they're own way. I blogg to reveal the presense of The Lord above in all that i am doing. To seek a little bit attention is not an illness. But when you all the time make a problem out of others there is a case for the psychiatric. I find out that people discuss me and dont know anything because they dont ask me on what is going on.

Attention seeking is an urge in people. All want love. But i dont want attention all the time. I found a book in a vintage store of a man living in peace. The picture gave me a sense in what i wanted with my life without copying his life. 

I have to move maybe from the farm in what other people do towards me because of my writing and my illness. It is hard to make it through in a place where people has a lot to mean about you. Without asking for the real mission. The mission with me is love for all in a natural ethical way.

People can think and mean whatever they want, but when people stalk you and tells stories that is not true about you, you know you are not the real case. There is other cases. 

I am worried that i will not make it through with people in the community because i know from a letter i got from the municipal head quarter that i am not wanted in the community.

It is hard when i have lived and loved here all the time.

I seek attention in the little by giving my stories a line to make people suffering to live a good life without much money and less friends. There is always good friends. But the people who always see you're illness and focus on that you really should  stay away from because it will not make you healthy. The people that give you equal attention in a give and receive relationship is the best ones healing you. People are kind to me. But some play mental games with me and tell stories. I get to hear a little of this and knows that someone wanted to play me out. I know that all will loose in the end with the knowledge that i dont play and put peoples life at risk.

I do not tell anymore. Other that i am kind, but very sad and in sorrow over people seeking attention and playing a role with people they do not know.

Seek attention for the urge of healing another person.

Attention you get with making the day better for someone that has had it very bad.

That is really the true goal in all christianity and what God wants you to do.

To be seen as a good person by someone suffering from a mental illness is a good quality you can take with you on the way on developing yourself to a better person.

I see very little of that around me and move soon to be together with patients and recovered people that really understand that problems will always occurs.

But that the true healing is together with people that knows and has learned from seeing that love is the only thing that survives. 

Seek true love in other persons and you find yourself as a better person.